Been busy with soso many stuff..

Finally, the national day roadshow is all over..
My fav one was at marina square..
omg the crowd was f awesome!
I'm still waiting for the photos from the photographers, managements and frens..

Well, I'm starring in this short film called 'Rememberence'
I'm playing a guy named 'Jerry' he's the lead role..
Jerry is a geeky, shy guy who secretly has a huge crush on his long lost childhood friend named Violet..

Filming started last thurs..I'm kinda lazy to type about it at the moment..
It's still under production.. since I'm schooling full time, they only film when I'm free..
So that means my weekends and everyday aft school for the next few days are filled with filming sessions..

Most of you readers might already know that I'm a drama teacher for EDN Media..
Here's something to share.. 2 weeks ago, EDN Media contacted me to teach at MOE Language Centr at Bishan on last Sat... The crazy thing about that was, I didn't teach drama classes.. Instead, I thought ppl from overseas how to speak English. LOL
They are the future 'MPs' from what I was told..
They were ppl from Japan, Korea, Middle Eastern, Indon, Malaysia and a few other countries.
I was kinda shocked that EDN called me up.. But obviously I didn't do it alone, there's this other Teacher named Mr. Philips who coulad speak 14 diff languages...I assisted him..lol..
Was fun..

And ytd, which is Sunday, I DJ'ed a wedding at Tampines st 21 blk 263.
Amy was down with Chicken Pox so Hairul and me runned the show while Man was behind the console. We had fun... Me and Tango went to chill at coffee beans aft that THEN....
We went drinking again...lol..Tango drank beer while I had long island..
I came to class this morning with a lil hangover.. But it was nothing compared to the first hangover I had in class last month..damn.. I gotta stop all these soon man..

Anyhoos.. tmr's the 3rd day of filming..lets just hope I won't forget the lines this time round..


1 more thing I wanna say..
This is what I think and its a personal feeling. For those who don't agree with me, I'm not even asking you to..
I think ALL girls are bitches. Yes, I said ALL. If you're a girl, YOU ARE A BITCH.
I don't trust ANY girls, they are in this world just to use guys. So fuck all you girls out there!
I'll stand my ground and stick with my mindset.

Like I said, this is what I think, so keep ur f comments to urself if u don't agree with me.

Jab

How could u lie to me? I tot u were honest, how could u??
I knew there was something fishy going on..
I knew somehow u were lying but I chose to believe u... I chose to fucking believe u!



Watch ur fuckin back boi! I'll fuckin hunt u down D!
I'll make sure you'll get it..and u will.. just wait and see punk!

I WILL FUCKING HUNT U DOWN D JUST WATCH UR FUCKING BACK BOI!

I've been touring around Singapore performing for the National Day Roadshow starting from 18 July.
I've performed at Toa Payoh Hub Mall and Jurong Point Mall last weekend, now I'm coming to the east side at Tampines1 Mall for this weekend.
So catch me perform live at ur hometown!

Here are the dates and locations.

18 & 19 July - @ Toa Payoh Hub Mall (Done)
25 & 26 July - @ Jurong Point Mall (Done)
1 & 2 Aug - @Tampines Open Feild Opp' Tampines1
5 & 6 Aug - @ Republic Poly
8 & 9 Aug - @ Marina Square

For any questions or enquiries, send me comments or msgs and I'll try my best to reply ASAP

Cheers,
Jab MacCardy
AffroDyna-Mic Entertainment
Talent House Studios: G *Star Pham

Canceled all briefings and recordings for today and tmr cos my mom got warded again..
Both dad and mom were out ytd night to Punggol Plaza's NTUC for grocery shopping.
On their way back, mom felt breathless and had chest pain.. She couldn't walk... Dad called Sis, sis told me and I immediately changed and ran all the way to punggol plaza... Got there, told dad to call the ambulance, but mom was stobourn, she just doesnt wanna go hospital.. She hates to be warded... But we had no choice..

I was already diling 995 then dad said to wait for elder bro.. Elder bro got off work and drove back immediately. Bro and me sent mom to SGH by car while dad rode there..

Mom was rushed to ER and dad, bro and me had to wait in the waiting room...Waited till slightly after 1am and dad told us to go back.. Doc said mom had to stay in...

Mom was tranfered to ICU this morning.. now I just got back from visiting her..
DR. Amy Eng, who is our family doctor from SGH, told us we are sitting on a time bomb...
I really don't like how that sounds like..

I pray hard for mom's recovery... She made it through when she got warded in 06', 07' and 08'.. I know she'll make through this year..

I love u mom... You're the only lady who had never left me before...

Jab :'(

I keep having these dreams about her... Damn it I miss her...

I can't believe I'm saying this but, I think I kinda regret knowing her... because of all the pain she put me through.. all the pretends and lies... I feel used... really I do...

Because of her, I started smoking again...because of her, I started drinking again.. I even went to class having fucked up hangovers from a night of drinking and getting high..
because of her, I do stupid things just to make myself feel better and to forget about my pain...

Who knew that heartless ppl like her even existed in this world... I didn't
I'm only human, I have feelings too... I just wish that 1 day soon she would open her eyes and realize that this is the real world... This is life..

Maybe only then, she would understand and try to think more maturely..
Maybe only then, she would stop playing games with love..
Maybe only then, she would realize her mistakes and learn from them..
Maybe only then, she would stop using people..

You know... I'm really on a crossroad now.. Part of my life is falling apart, while the other half is working hard and getting there...

All in all, I just wanna wish her all the best in life and hope that karma will take place soon.. Because I think that's the only way to make her wake up... Not that I'm hopping bad things would happen to her or anything..
I just want her to understand life in a more mature level.. So maybe karma can help..

I loved u FJV, what did I do that made u leave me hanging cold?
U look so young and innocent... Who knew you'd be so cold and heartless in the inside...

If you didn't wanna have anything with me, why start something in the first place?
Love is not a game dear, pls understand that...

I miss u FJV, I really do... :(

Fucked up!!

One of my classmates was infected with H1N1 and guess what??
I'm quarantined for 7 days!!... But I've got work and stuff...

The National Day Tour Concert starts this weekend onwards..how am I spose to perform???
How bout rehearsals??? how bout recordings??

I've got a bridal photo shoot on Sunday!

And I've got filming tmr for OKTO!.... how how HOW!!!!!!!!


Damn!!!

Class ended early today.. so as usual, I headed home straight...
I took the train to pasir ris and frm there I took the bus..
I was listenin to "Hello" by evanescence on my my mp3... Fyfe loved that song...
suddenly, I felt like calling her...But I knew she wouldn't ans my calls...but I really wanted to...

Then here's the painful part....the song ended and it went to the next track...and the next track was "Gone" by justin timberlake...when I listen to the lyrics...OMFG...all the flash backs of me and her came back...everything from our 1st ever date till my b'day, till that time we ton at ecp till the time when she started to ignore and avoid me...
I tried so hard to stop myself from crying...I even covered my face with my file...I couldn't help it...tears were running down my face..I was really missing her so badly... I remembered all the places we went to and all the things we did...all the hours we spent on the phone and stuff... sigh...all the memories of me and her was and still is flashing in my head...this is really killing me...this hurts sosososososo much...damn...

Here's the lyrics to the song....the lyrics are so true....

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Oh...

Oh, what will I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're....



She's gone :'(